im so dam frustrated and irritated..im fightn alone in this hardcore extreme war called life..so much pain suffering and strife...mayne im jus in a f.uck you mode...so many thoughts and anger held inside..im bout 2 explode..death is where i will b at, at thee end of tha road...so im waitin 2 hit my expiration date...a lifestyle i was born in2 and was made to create...cant do it no more..family and friends i use 2 adore..so many things have changed..i wish things woulda stayed the way they were b4...but i guess not...in the back of my mind..ive already been pronounced dead..i died of a disease called pain...it spread..all over my body..so many causes and effects..wats next?...i dont plan 2 fail to fulfill gods plan but i'm so close 2 falln ova the edge;ledge..bet if i fall, no1 will b there 2 catch me..pple might disagree but they kno tha truth...dam my youth..years is pretty hard for me now..or am i just making them hard?? mayb i need 2 stop lettn my guard...down and keep holdin it up..i dont kno anymore...im done dependin on otha pple cuz dey wont help me...so now..i will leave behind a world i wanted 2 explore..supposed-friends..and a crazee family... *MY LiFE NOW ENDS*