My feet
I can’t see
My hands
Burning,
Maybe

My mind,
It’s half empty

Can you tell? I’m only PMSing.

I’m cold
I’m lonely

It’s dark
I really can’t see
Shit but a mirror

It talks,

It’s annoying

“Look what you used
To be

Short, chubby
Quiet, silly
Virgin, happy”

Like diarrhea,
Upon my fucking mind

“FOOL,”

I yelled






It didn’t want to listen…

“What did you have?”

Nothing

“Love,
Trust,
Friendship”


I had no fucking life.



“Don’t you remember?

Kisses,
Crushes,
Fairytales,
And fucking lullabies!”

I don’t.















And it was gone…







“What are you now?

Beautiful,
A fucking prisoner,
A God damn well experienced cock sucker!”


I covered up my eyes
As if not seeing it would
Make it disappear


“And what do you have?

Just your father
Tracing your EVERY FUCKING MOVE!”


I covered my ears,




I hid under hills of blankets



“You have fuckers
From hell knows where,
Waiting with their fucking dicks
High as flag poles”




She was making a mistake




“Slut”




I broke her,
With hands of disappointment


And threw her outside.





My eyes stung,
My nose plugged,
My face,
It burned

But I was numb








“You fucking whore.”



I did not hear it



“Did you honestly think you could get away?”




She’s not there




“ANSWER ME!”



She should’ve left when she could



… she thought it was funny…




I screamed,


Murdering the skies,


I screamed


Ripping apart dreams,


I screamed


Holding onto dear

… sleep



As they ran in,


One by one


To make sure I was still alive


Just to laugh,


To get their own


Fresh entertainment




Of silence

and madness








And it was gone…















‘til I woke up.