dear farther i shielded my pain of you like i was wearing armor
but then again u died way before i was a toddler so why bother
shedding tears, adding pain or extra drama i gotta
tell you that i feel you would of not got shot in the head if u would of left the drug game alone
but you took one to the dome cause jealous people wanted ur luxary cars and fancy home
i was 7 months old it was so cold growing up in a fartherless home, a mother on coke
broke its no joke how my pillow was soaked watching mom stick the needle inside
i cried every night knowing i had noone by my side but if you were still here she'd be aight
you would of kept her straight away from harm she would of never seen u die in her arms
which means no needles in the arm no sniffing no smoking and me knowing how love felt
but instead i had to untie the belt watch her give head, see the rocks melt
i dealt with so much in such little time made me revert to crime selling dubs and dimes
following ur lead pops you must be proud i guess i should end it with i love you but how?


dear Chucho u always treated me like your son like your daughters brother
you were my mothers brother and i know you loved her and i loved ya
miss you so much its not the same with out you around
a clown but everyone feared you a strong man with a gentle heart
you were so far apart from the rest you were the best now ur at rest
but the organ that pumps in my chest is stressed knowing you left
i gotta confess i wish you were here i know im bieng selfish
but well i wish i had you patting me on the head
telling me everything is ok go ahead go to bed i will take care of your mom again
she's not dead son shes sleeping..... but while i was dreaming ya were sceming
both getting high cause of pains ya were feeling, believing drugs was the only way
so you kept with the cocaine til the blood stop reaching your brain you died
i love you so much miss you and your daughter she is doing fine has 2 kids now
looks just like you with that unforgetable smile


dear Grandma you hear from me every hour my soul is devoured
lifes so much harder since u have been gone i cant seem to let go
wont let go tears flow constant in my soul you already know
you were my everything the reason i breathed i mean
you were the only one who showed me a pure good heart
i cant say one thing bad wouldnt know where to start
the whole family misses you and is lost alot of them moved on
dont know how they did wish i could figure it out
need a break from suffering to figure things out
i cannot bring myself to write about you now
so im gonna end this with i love you and will see you soon

R.I.P to all will see ya soon