I pick up tha phone and reluctantly answer... Hello
When I hear tha voice on tha other end I think tah myself... hell no
But something tells me tah wait and see what she has tah say
I know it caint be nothing good, ther's no way
I shift tha phone from one ear tah tha other
And as I thought, its only more bad news bout mah mother
I try real hard tah hold tha tears back as I listen in fear
And silently down my cheek trickles a single tear
I begin sobing as if i were a child again
Lookin in tha mirror at my now pale skin
I thought I might faint, I though I might puke
But there was nothing at all for me tah do
I sat back and listened tah tha story of how this became
She's contracted AIDS, it brings me tah shame.
After all tha rough times and shit we been through
I never thought my wosrt nightmare may come true
And As I sit in silence I cry out in anger
She contracted this shit from some stranger
I thought tah myself I'd never see her again
I wanted to apollogize for so may things but I didnt know where tah begin
Cause when I say I feel sorry people say it wasn't my fault
And some day soon I know her life will come to an abrupt hault
I can't think of how much I would give tah take it all away
Juss tah give her more time here tah stay
See years before she lost all her faith
She was out tricken and now she's livin with AIDS
I would give tha world tah juss see her one more time
Before she has to go and stand in her place in line
I wish I could say I know she will got to heaven but I caint
Mah momz is no soulja... she's no saint
Nothing could stop her years ago on her pole
But now she realized and this disease is takin it's tole
I want soooo much for her tah be happy juss once more
But deep in mah heart i already know things can never be like they were before
I drop tah mah knees a give a lil prayer
I tell god tah not let her be a stranger
And if he could guide me down tha opposite path that mah moms took
Maybe he could point out certain areas where I'd be too blind tah look
Let this be tha one difference in us if any
God knows you made us so much a like features alike, sooo many
Give me strength, wisdom, and self love tah never follow her footsteps
Lord save me from falling to those depths