They say
when you feel as though
no one is on your side
that everyone you love is against you
or can never understand what you are going through
God has you right where he wants you
So I guess it's safe to say
that He wants me to be alone
I feel that no one is around me
When I'm in a room full of people
I feel outcasted and uncared for
When I go to speak
The whole room gets quiet
and I feel like the annoying mouse
Scrambling across the floor
My friends make me feel...unimportant and unnoticed
There's a man that has my full heart of love
So bad that through the day I can't seem to focus
And yet for three days he hasn't call me
It was Valentine's Day
and he deserted me
to be with his friends and cousins
I was left lonely
Just needed someone to hold me
instead I was stuck in an emotional catastrophe
On the outside I had to seem happy
I couldn't let how I was feeling show
And my friends laugh at me
I didn't want to concern them with what I was feeling
This was their time to be happy
with the little dramatics of me
It seems they don't wanna be bothered with my tragedies
I wouldn't either if I wasn't me
I hate being me
sometimes
I wanted to talk
Cry, punch, scream, fight
Just to let out everything I hear
So that it's in plain site
But I can't
I can't talk to my parents
They won't understand
My friends have their lives
Can't put my worries on their head
So I'm alone, once again
not just physically, but emotionally, mentally
I can't figure it out
I guess this way is best.
I'm going to be quiet then
The quiet mouse
I'll be the one in the crowd of the party
Doing nothing but observing the guests
My life is a quiet quest
And who's my partner?
Just guess
It's me....