When I was American Dreamin'
Shit Imma tell it like it is
Was still a seed sitting around my mommy's belly
Wondering if I'd die just like my older brother did
Wondering if I really did deserve to live
9 months later
((Shit somewhat got better))
But I'd never in my life picture this...
At the Age of 5, I was forever caught up in bottle smashing
Neck grabbin
Whore calling
Sex moaning catastrophe's
Knife's being secluded
I was young but so many wanted to slash me
5 years later my fam and I did the best thing
And moved on to the true start of our American Dream
Big home, quiet zone but it wasn't enough cause see

When I was American Dreamin
I was in the midst of an even deadlier scene
Caught in the middle of a Blood and Crip shoot out
Almost the shield used by my ex so he wouldn't get shot
Got stripped down to nothing
Head bashed against brick walls
Scratched, bitten, everything torn...
But I still escaped, and my body was forever the center of
Sexual aggression and hate
Almost the center of a gang rape
Forcefully submerged to perform oral sex
Gun to my head, if i didn't do it i'd die
Regurgitated the seamen all three of em forced me to swallow
Almost dying the following day, with no hopes to follow

But
I kept dreaming to stay alive so escaping was all I could do
Was raised in a decent household but gained so much knowledge from the hood
American Dreamin
Street hood scheming
Paralyzed between Good and Bad
I need a gold medal or something for still graduating Top Honors in my class in high school
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To have that American dream is to believe
Step into reality first
And face situations so deep
Even if it hurts