When I was American Dreamin’…
I never thought I’d be the bitch filled up with semen
And left alone 2 raise a boy into a man before he even started breathin’
To me it’s absurd how a child can be refused by the sperm that made him a man…
When my pops raised me from a lil girl into the strong woman that I am…
He told me 2 always be independent, don’t expect a dude to give u shit
Cuz in the long run the only thing they give u is their dick 2 kiss….

And when I was American Dreamin’
I never thought my pussy would be stuffed wit coke
And the streets I called home would be paved with fiends overdosing off dope
I profited off other peoples misery, keeping my third eye open 4 undercover cops
Hustled by any means necessary..charging them white boys $50 for a $20 rock
The pressures of life got the best of me… I became immune 2 the liquor and haze
Started sniffin’ them white lines, and got lost in a formaldehyde daze.

I woke up one morning…60 pounds lighter…the mirror didn’t reflect my image the same
I was eating one time a week, not only losing weight but losing the cells in my brain.
The singing voice stopped…my freestyle game haulted
My pen ran outta ink…and all my lyrical gems had been vaulted.
How was I supposed to serve a customer when I was a product of the drug he desired?
At that moment I took off the shoes of my current life…
Tied em up...and threw em over the telephone wires.

And when I was American Dreamin’
I never thought I’d be the mistress….I thought I’d be the wife.
Guess I aint good enough for the ring…but I’m good enough for the pipe.
Staring at my belly crying…pregnant 3 times by another woman’s husband
I was so innocently ignorant and fell victim to his lovin’
He didn’t want another kid so he hit me with his fist
As I layed on the ground I swore my baby inside was crying saying…
“Mommy u deserve a better life than this.”

But see...a bitch like me doesn’t get the picket fence or the grass that’s green
I got lulled to sleep by gunshots and visions of yellow tape blockin’ off the murder scene.
I walk with a limp cuz I got the whole fuckin’ universe on my shoulder…..
I may have never done a tour in Iraq…but I’ll be damned if I aint soldier.
If they gave away medals for surving life…I’d have the Purple Heart and the Silver Star...
America is the promise land for many….
But whoever thought making the dream come true….would be so fuckin hard………