As I stare at your picture
I am struck with an emotion to just go ahead and end it all
Look at what I have given
My dreams
My ambitions
My goals
Look at what you have taken
My mind
My heart
My soul
My tree is changing
My leaves are falling
I am bare
I am completely bare

As I stare at your picture
My eyes start to cry
These tears are symbols of my inadequacy
Oh how I want to die
I never thought life could change me
I never thought love could change me
I use to feel so happy
Now I am just sad and angry
Confused on so many levels
It is too hard to try and pick one
I am picked apart and dried all up
Just like a raisin in the sun
Give me a reason to go and not want to die
Give me a rainbow over my rainy days so that I may want to try

As I stare at your picture
I see how we use to be
Joy was are instruments
Love was our symphony
We made beautiful music and you sooth my soul
Now my heart is untamable
I have lost control
This anger is building up
I am about to explode
I have to do one of two things with this love
Learn to hate it
Or end my life to let it go
Either way I lose my soul
Either way it takes its toll
And either way I lose you
So what is a man to do?