Breath

When you left me
I lost all inspiration
I couldn’t eat, couldn’t sleep
In fatigue I kept pacing.

The day we parted
With a sweet simple kiss
I felt emptiness in my soul
And caught a chill from my head to my toes
Then suddenly went nub all over
The muscles grew tighter and tighter, and grip tighter in my shoulders
Looking down at my hands as they shook and where wet from sweat
My fingertips tingled and I took in a deep breath.
And in my mind I couldn’t believe this shit was happening to me..
Fuck the heartache and the heartbreak!
It seemed my heart stop within a beat….

But I didn’t turn around
Because I refused to cry
And I knew that I would if I looked into your eyes.
Those honey brown eyes
Allowed me to look into the windows of your soul
At the person I thought I knew
But did I really?
Hell No!

What was I to do, play it cold?
So for the next seven whole days I played the role.
But my heart knew something wasn’t right, something was truly wrong.
Because I was weak and only see as strong through others sight.
So on Friday, I put on my pajamas and for the next three days it was night.
For me the Sun did not shine and the moon had no glow.
I didn’t comb my hair
I didn’t change my clothes
Had no need to answer the phone or the door.
Because my life stopped and I felt that I was lock under hell.

In the silence of my night I could hear my mind YELLL!!!!
But I didn’t listen, I couldn’t pay attention.
Because I could only focus on the promises you mentioned:
I’ll never leave you.
Baby I need you.
I won’t deceive you.
Just let me please you.

Sorrow came easy and happiness came slow.
I never knew you would take part of the emulsification of my soul.
In my eyes you where like platinum and I was like gold.
I allowed you to shape me and place me in a mold.
With you I glittered and shined
And I was never dull
I didn’t realize, couldn’t see through my eyes that you where in control.
You where the teacher of things to me unknown.
I found myself but didn’t recognize myself, kneeling at the foot of your throne.

Me the Divine Queen and I gave you more than my all.
With you baby it seems like I stood more than a thousand feet tall
And nothing, no nothing could have prepared me for my great fall.
Fall was the season you left.
Fall was the season we met.
Now I stare down at the tattoo on my breast.
Watching my heart beat out of my chest.
And I’m waiting for you to restore my breath……………………………….
Waiting on you to restore my breath……………………….
Waiting for you to restore…..my………


~Complex


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