"you either still love me or you never did"
-words from a wise man-
heartfelt to a kid.
(this kid)
im still young, and im still learning.
i still make mistakes
& love? im still searching.
Y E A R N I N G
but im like that candy painted car...
clean on the out side,
but what lies inside...
wont get it very far.
and no, i dont have all the answers
so i apologize for when you ask me a question
and i give you that blank stare.
its the questions you ask me & the things you dont mention at all
how you seem to keep climbing while i noticably fall...
...back in love-
sort of like a RELAPSE
this isnt good for me;
but everytime you laugh,
and everytime you smile
i seem to take 3 steps back
..into that state of misery,
becuase you and me...
are alike but see things differently.
i try to make things go your way but i fail to succeed.
i have nothing left to give;
your impossible to please.
you see...
i bring to the table a bad attitude and a broken heart,
but i came didnt i? isnt that a start?
my effort is pointless.
go on, you can say it-
im just a dissapointment.
&& the mistakes i make shittttt,
they gotta be on purpose
because i keep on makin em
as if my lesson hasnt been learned yet.
lately, sorry is a handout because im clueless of what else i could say;
it just hurts to know/show im miserable when your just fine either way.
for some reason(i wonder why) were unhappy...
but sadly, thats reality
of this fallacy

--the failed attempt to please you;
but i cant walk out on us..
i think thats your que.
see, im not a quitter and i wont give up, give in, or give you
the pleasure of blaming me again-
so if you would, please continue...
...to look at me as if im stupid
-i dont wanna lose this-
thats my excuse^^^ and im stickn to it.
"if you love something let it go".. ithink thats right?
well i lost you once, lets make it work this time.