He was like a puppy that needed love
and I did....
I was venturesomely bold to him
He was immediately attracted to me
The weirdness of my ways
But...
What he didnt know was
I needed love more then he did
He got bigger and found out that I was just a bug
Uncapible of human love...
I became the fly on a lions tail
my heart was very needy and manipulative
But the same cravings of all things ment to be loved
That was odd to him....when he was right here
And still I craved...
Yet he didnt spend much time trying to figure me out
He knew it would'nt never matter
Looking thru pass experineces and lesson at hand
Still he came up empty
I cant live without him
But I do everything to drive him away
Still he hangs on to what used to be.......
And it makes him mad at me he cant let go
But desperately needs to walk away for his own sanity
And it makes me madder that I wont let him go
I remember....
When his face was engulfed with love
It was tho his heart told me a secret
And I vowl to keep it
It was hard to keep a smile off his face
Now its even harder to get him to look my way
Still he stays
Answering the phone to my drunken rants
I dont think I even want forgiveness because I cant forgive myself
I cant explain why....
Why I do these things
Why am I writing this today...
I think its my obsessive nature
Im spoil and use to having my way
And he knows these things
So he make's me suffer in that order
But still he cant walk away....