PUSHIN OUT THA DIAMONDZ WELCOMING IN THA COAL... SEEMZ LIKE I GOT PRESSURE BACKWARDZ....

RUNNIN HEAD 1ST INTO A NO OUTLET BUT ALWAYZ USIN MA WORDZ AZ AN ESCAPE BUT NOT THIS TIME.... IT ONLI COVERZ UP MY EMOTIONAL PILE OF RUDENESS... STILL LETZ IN THA KRAZii BREEZE... MOODZ LIKE THA SEASONZ... WEARIN A RAIN COAT AS MA TEARZ DROP... WEARIN SUNGLASSES AS MY SMILE SHINES... I DONT KNOW WHO I AM ANYMORE...

CANT SEEM TO REGISTER WHERE TO EVEN BEGIN TO PICK UP THA PIECES I'VE STARTED TO UNDO...BUT LIKE A PUZZLE... ONLii THE PIECES I DONT LET SCATTER CAN BE PIECED BACK IN IT'Z ORIGINAL PLACE... SO CAN WE REVERSE WAT I'VE ALREADY TRIED TO RUN AWAY 4RM...?

MAKIN A SELFISH ATTEMPT TO MEET WAT IM NOT READY FOR... ONLii TO FIND OUT THAT MY TEARZ WOULDN'T BE THA 1'z FALLIN... SO MUCH I HAVEN'T DONE AND SO MUCH AWAITING ME IN THA ROADZ TO COME...HOW DARE I BE SO INCONSIDERATE... EVEN THO ACTIONZ MADE 4 ONEZ SELF IZ SELFISH IT'Z ABOUT TIME I THINK ABOUT ME "MORE" THAN U. OPENING MY EYEZ TO WAT SHOULD HAVE BEEN MA 1ST PRIORITY...ME... BUT MY HEART IZ NOW MA EYEZ AND ALL I SEE IZ HELPING THOSE IN NEED... NEGLECTING THE EMPTY SPACE LEFT FOR ME.....

AGAIN I QUESTION WHERE DO I GO 4RM HERE? WHICH ROAD IZ BETTER FOR ME TO TAKE? RUNNIN BACK TO THA OLD ANGRY WAYZ OR WELCOMING A NEW BEGINNING... NOT REALLY NEW BUT A BEGINNING OF BETTER OPPORTUNITIEZ....BETTER WAYZ OF DEALING WITH EMOTIONS INSTEAD OF SHELTERING THEM WITH AN ANGRY BLANKET.... OR CONTINUE TO STAY WHERE IM AT... CHANNEL ALL THAT IZ LEFT OF ME... ALL THAT I CAN EVER BECOME...ACCEPTING THIS "BOX" I'VE COME SO ACCUSTOM'D TO...ONLii TO BE FOUND RITE BACK TO SQUARE 1....NO MORE TURNING BACK THA HANDZ OF TIME.... NO MORE ASKIN INCOHERANT QUESTIONS... I ALREADY KNOW WAT TO DO... AND THATZ 2 MOVE ON TO THA NEXT STAGE IN MY LIFE: ADULTHOOD....