Although yesterday you had me
speaking in a foreign language
today I will swallow my tongue whole
just so I’ll never be able to
speak the words “I love you”
I’ve encouraged my emotions to suicide…
pushing them off the cliff of my heart
to drown
in the ocean of tears
down below…

Long gone…

Long gone are
the days that I cared
and I’ll never admit
to missing you
I’d rather silence my goose bumps
by duct taping their mouth
cast my legs so that they’ll be strong enough
to withstand your absence
and stab the hairs on my neck
with razors, to kill the possibility
of ever letting them
salute the remains of your
lingering breathe

Nope… No more

No more will I say a prayer
in your name or our union
Nor will I give you the biblical power
to part my legs
like the red sea
instead,
I will put my body through
a mental fasting
in hopes of perspiring
your love through my pores
skinny myself of you
until the bones in my body
become fragile & weak so that I can
manually break off the rib implanted in me
with your initials
because I can survive
with just 23 of them
heave the contaminated apple
that we both shared and walk away
from your serpent
and into the glory of
masturbation until
my body cums
your dna
out of me…


forever…