I am the star attraction to the “hall of shame” built in your heart,
Because words that have been listened to,
But rejected,
Words that tell the truth of who I am.
I thought “the truth shall set you free”,
Not become a sin.
I open my mouth and say “I’m gay”,
And you want to banish me!
You want to exile me from family,
From friendship.

But I am your son,
Your brother,
Your friend,
And this is the way love goes?
Downhill, huh?

Forget trying to get me to participate in an act to repent to who I am.
I refuse to be the apologist.

Is your love for me gone that fast?
I have become unforgivable.

Shun me if you dare,
And it will break my heart.
I will always love you,
But your hatred will always cause me to sleep in an ocean of my own tears,
Our hearts distances away.

With just those two words,
Do you detest me that much?
This…hurts…so…much.

Detestable.
I don’t think you would kiss me good night,
Like you did when you rocked me to sleep as a baby.

Untouchable.
You probably will forget all our brotherly affection.

But I am your son,
Your brother,
Your friend…
Your student, your associate,
Your mentee, your confidant,
And in your eyes,
Maybe I dry up like a raisin in the sun.

I will always love you,
But I do not see what I have done.
Your heart is cold like an ice box,
And all I can do is cry.

I am in your hall of shame,
And I still stand on my two feet,
Never having the sense to hate you back.

I don’t see why,
But in your eyes I remain unforgivable,
As you wait for my repentance of the truth.
I still love you,
But I cry myself a river because your mind is calloused,
And I have the fear that I will never have your love again.

I used to shine in your word,
But now I have deteriorated into a pile of dust that is…
Unforgivable.