The red velvet dripped from my lips
As i experienced the many emotions brought upon by this day
I could feel the red wine trickle from my center
Down my thighs and onto my feet
As i escorted death into my womb
I tried to refrain from seeing eye to eye
With Valentine's Day...
Because you see although today you might exchange
Lustfilled fluids with another
And blame it on hallmark...
I reminisce about the fluids i shed and accuse...love
And on a day where Love seems to glitter in gold
I lost a treasure
Once safely placed on my linings
My body providing all his needs
And protecting him from harm...
But today two years ago
I seduced death with a red dress
And opened my legs
Leading him to the exact location of a tiny being with an enormous soul
His soul towered over me from here to the moon
Looking down to me in shame
While my eyes drowned in hope
In hopes that he'd understand my pain...
I remember looking into Heaven
And wondering if i'd ever make it out of this hell
For my actions clearly stated that i married the Devil
And he wanted the angelic being inside of me
He wanted my baby to witness his mother
Selfishly getting fucked by death
Until my legs and my belly went numb
I remember being lubricated in a cherry substance
Pain shooting up and down from my death trap to my heart
A death-attack on a soul that never made it far...
And as i laid in hopes that on my grave my death would mark Feb.14
Tears began to fall backwards
In a race to wash away the blood that leaked from inside of me
But only succeeding in pushing out of me pieces of me
Pieces i wasnt ready to give up
I could see my heart dismantled and my soul ripped apart
All blended with pain and tinted red...
Sucked into a tube that lead into a box
My baby's coffin was white and slightly grey..
Sitting on a table at the end of my feet
..Wishing it was me compressed instead..