-They drop at the same speed my dreams faltered...slowly
Entrapping all desires to continue to love
Whirling away in the darkness of my pupils...-

And i know you'll never change your mind
But i cant stop giving you my all
And its like...
Like my tears fall backwards
Clogging the back of my throat
Creating a knot that ties all my pain
Along with the letters that once formed our poetry
Drowning my insides
Slowly decreasing the breathes my heart takes
As it floats to the top of a tearful-sea
Tears flooding out memories we once made
In hopes that when i drain this pain
I wont remember what it's like to feel your warmth
So as my tears roll backwards
Onto the back of my tongue
Tasting the brew of bitterness that has become
I stand still...
Because i'm too afraid to fly from this single twig
To find a safer nest
You took the little bit of hope i had left for all man kind
And turned it into fools gold
So I apologize in advance to
Those who will try to break down the barriers
To those who will succeed in proving you are good men
To those whose honesty will be invisible in my eyes
I apologize truely for using you for the fullfilment of my lust
I apologize to the women who i will affect
With my way of thinking
For despite what you believe
EVERYONE is easily influenced by word of my mouth
And perhaps one day in the far future
I will find a man who is okay with my views on what he is
And maybe he'll influence my way of thinking
He might even find the one who stole my heart
And take it back for me
But until that day comes
I stand here
With my feet facing you
I stand here with lips shut
And eyes crying....
Backwards...