**** writer's note: this is crazy, i know, lol ... so sorry ****

Is this a delusion or an illusion?
Is there a difference?
I don’t know, all I know is I’m trying to get home
Driving on slick roads
Having to swerve to miss the pine trees
That keep popping up in the middle of my lane
Where the fuck did they come from?
This is an illusion, has to be...
Imagine if I were to just crash
I’d have a tree in my car
And the man walking on the side of the road
Would just keep walking
He has his own destiny cuz he is sinking
Sinking into the sidewalk, willingly striding into Hell
I drive fast, swerving, trying to avoid Hell
But if Hell is welcoming, and Heaven is not
Then in Hell I will reside
For the delusions of my father prophesize that only one religion
One race that is of the same skin tone or lighter than he
Will enter Heaven, the rest will be damned by its demons
And their descendants will never be free
But me, I don’t want to believe that the Lord is that prejudice
Nor do I want eternity to be spent with such hypocrisy
So Heaven or Hell, if I make it thru these trees, maybe one day I will see
If the delusions are real
For now I continue home, unlock my doors
And enter my own sanctuary

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Hot waters flowing down my body
Allows my mind to think, and realize there were no trees
Only illusions of perception
Rub lavender, chamomile and ylang-ylang into my skin
The scents seduce me to sleep
Where another world evolves and I awake…

To my co-worker next to me in my bed
We are surrounded by dildos
What???
Are those mine? Damn I need to hide them
Before she sees and tells everyone
All these people in my house, who are they?
Why are they here?
I push my way to the freezer,
Arms full of contraband and shame
Open the door to find dead dogs wrapped in cellophane
Frozen completely
And my turtle with his head cut off
Still bleeding
Tears running down my face
I’m suddenly at work
My computer is covered in snow
I can’t type the keyboard is also frozen
I’m unable to communicate
Panic!
I hear them calling for me but I can’t answer
Shots are fired and I can only hear
Oh shit, what’s happening out there?
A small child’s voice crying, “Help you! Help you please!”
Where is she? Where did she go?
I’m trying to help, but my feet are stuck
My computers go blank
And I.T. stands up behind desk
An electrical cord in his hand
“Oh, were you using this computer?”
They are all calling for help now
And
I
CAN’T
HELP!!!
I’m stuck, I can’t even help myself
Panicking!!!
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I wake up, breathing hard
The room is dark, oh shit!
I’m late for work!
I bolt out of bed, then realize its only 630pm
I don’t have to be to work til 8pm
Take a look back, no one else is in my bed
World is unfocused and cloudy
Am I still asleep? My heart is still pounding
I can still hear the voices in my head
Images are still clear in my mind
Drop 2 drops of eyes drops in each eye
And the world begins to refocus
Colors take shape
Cuz with one blink my contacts are clear
I lay on the couch
Turn on the TV
The Devil’s Advocate
Now playing on USA
More delusions and illusions
I’m definitely not prepared for this
Better to watch The Fresh Prince of Bel-Air…