effortlessly lexie

...without meaning to...
i've been ignoring things purposely
accidentally overhearing conversations between you && your friends
but silencing the many questions.
i've avoided eye contact bashfully
bcuz like you i ,too, am shy && at times
my nerves get the best of me.
i've placed myself strategically
so that as you pass by, our eyes meet
even if it's just for a second.
i've cared for you carefully
certain not to let too many privilege
to feelings they may never see.
i've spoke of you highly
like we've known each other mad long
even though i don't know you at all.

...presently...
i think about you frequently
bcuz once you enter my thoughts
you refuse to leave but i'm not complaining.
i feel you deeply
bcuz it's not what you say
but it's what you do that intrigues me.
i see you unexpectedly
bcuz at those rare moments when you slip my mind
you always seem to [re-]appear before me.
i hear your voice soothingly
bcuz the melodic sound of you
is the only sound worth hearing.
i smell you occasionally
bcuz even after you've left
your scent seems to linger.

...if i could...
i'd appreciate you wholeheartedly
just to show my affection for you
i'd give into your every want && need.
i'd respect you completely
being your rock when you need &&
giving you the space && time to breathe.
i'd listen to you attentively
your words will not be ignored but taken beyond face value
bcuz that's just how much i treasure you.
i'd communicate with you unreservedly
secrets would be something of the past
bcuz i'd tell you any- && everything.
i'd love you unconditionally
our flaws could never scathe
the foundation of this relationship.

&& before i leave
let me just sign this
effortlessly
♥ lexie ♥

nicole alexandria
a.k.a lexie
7.18.08