I shOuld Of deleted all the messages that you sent me.. maybe I aint ready tO let gO.. still hOlding tO the memOry.. deleted yOur number as if I didn't knO it by heart.. & as if that was gOne stOp yOu frm callin me.. pretending as if I erased it I'd fOrget whO yOu are.. thru away all the pictures of U.. like as if i don't have a PhOtographic picture of U in my mind.. I'm hOping all these thing will help me release U in time.. blOcked U frm my faCebOok & my MYSAPCE.. bite my tongue sO I don't say ur name.. close my ears sO I won't hear ur vOice.. pull away sO I cant feel ur tOuch.. shut my eyes sO I don't see ur faCe.. & this is the Order I go thru everyday.. avoiding tempation.. this hurts.. & I wish you & this feeling wOuld jus gO away.. I lOve yOu.. damn.. I hate U.. & I wish I never met U at all.. Y' did U do me this way.. U ruined my life.. & U 9-11 my whOle wOrld.. ur a terrorist.. & nOw I hate ur name, & initial in it.. yet I'm waiting fOr U to fix this.. tho I know its possible that U won't.. I call nonstop hoping you'd pick up but yOu don't.. if U don't want me jus say it.. thO I still want U I can't fake it.. this feeling I'm tryna fade it.. & I dnt think there nothing I can dO to save it... its gOne.. I tried to grip tight.. but it slipped Out my hand & I coudnt hold On.. so plz.. once I'm over U.. dnt call out the blue.. dnt see how I'm doin.. dnt bring back this feeling that's attacking me right now.. I dnt think I can handle U being arOund.. I jus wanna erase u