8stanzas if there's not all there refresh the page..u say I don't care..look at the backround there's ur proof..how can I fake cry when I don't cry?

19years of pain...I can't hold back anymore
afraid to blink now..becuz the tears will hit the floor
watery eyes..this can't be real
im finally expressing how I truly feel
looking in a daze..for days...how can I heal
trying not to cry..so I don't have to clean the spill

how hold back...I see the rain pouring from the sky
when ur left with no1 beside
and there's no more places left to hide
the sun light won't shine..just subsides
trapped anger becomes..a help me plez..cry
some drown in sorrows..im drowning my eyes

pulling together
fading dimmer
I miss her...so im left with no1 to keep warm n the winter

you see the tear..does that look like a game
u think its my aim..to fake..feeling pain
u left me..said I wudnt change
but when I talkd to u calmly...u spoke in a rage
now u I neva hate...I want u but its too late
left with heartache...n I know u can relate

u don't call eitha..u don't text a nigga
u said im full of pride..but ur pride is bigger
I might hold the trigger..but ur the one who pulled it
u said..get da fuck out my life...like there was nothn 2 it

and bella u kno I love her..don't use that excuse
telling me ur opening other doors...so what's the use
when I did call n try..I got verbal abuse
what more can I say dammit..what more can I do

das me on da screen crying..showin the world my tears
u left me becuz I wudnt give into my fear
the love I have for u won't fade thru the years
I even used ur favorite song..to bleed into ur ears

see u on yahoo lord now I wanna type u..
afraid ull flip on me..so instead I just write u
u were my burnin flame I guess I hava watch another light u
becuz as much as I try n hold u..u think I want to fight you