I'm so far beyond words of wisdom, help or love,
I can't confide in anyone,
Not even the one above,
I've felt this feeling for 10 years now,
And to turn back,
I really don't know how,
It's hard to love yourself,
When each day gets worse,
You wake up mad at the fact,
That nothing is resolved,
You've styll got emotions bottled up as high as the heavens,
And as much as your friends think their words work,
They're just words given,
I've tried to look in the mirror,
Without pure hate of it's reflection,
But it never works,
I can't say "I love you",
To that girl staring back,
When I know i'm not sincere,
Just putting on an act,
I backtrack,
If I ever get far enough to fall,
And when i ask for help,
I really get nothing at all,
No one's words,
Last more than a day or two,
And when that's all over,
I'm back to the same old me,
In pain,
And trying to escape misery,
Without a doubt I'm ungrateful,
But in my eyes I have nothing to be thankful for,
Other people and things don't matter,
When the main person I should be loving,
Is the person I hate the most...

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