...Follow My Heart...
I'm listening as she speaks and all I can think of is "here we go again"...
With this up hill down hill battle between my man and my bestfriend...
Tryna show sympathy for her feelings while avoiding mine of wanting it to end...

Putting me in between a rock and a hard place as he's the one holding my heart...
Although she warned me before I even allowed it to start...
Being a wifey and a bestfriend...I'm only one person tryna play two parts...

And as I've been known to be down for the rides...
I'm getting two different stories and I don't wanna choose sides...

Cuz I'm not sure of the truth or the lie...
Looking at both of them eye to eye...

Behind her guard they're hard to read...
Behind his sincerity and providing the things I need...

With her I have years of bond that I don't want broken...
Listening to the story one more time and the truth is what I'm hoping...
Use this to improve for the best cuz this is the last token...

I'm telling her sometimes you have to love, hurt, learn, and let go...
Life's too short to hold grudges..this you should already know...

Whether or not he said I love you and didn't mean it...
And she was foolish enough to believe it...

Or whether or not it was just a one night stand...
He's approached me like a man...
And grabbed my hand...

Caught my emotions as they began to fall...
Accepted me at my worst and appreciates my all...

And after all this time...
All she's managed to do is confuse my mind...
As acceptance and appreciation is not part of anything she's able to find...
Got me feeling like a broken toy running in place with each wind...

One minute letting go and allowing the past being something she's able to shake...
Just to turn around and say doing so makes her feel as if she's fake...

Since when did fake consist of ignoring the statements you've once heard...
I thought it consist of going back on your word...

And as far as I've seen that's exactly what's she's done...
One minute agreeing with me that he could be the one...
But as she sees he's more to me than just a lil sex fun...

The whole situation in her words literally hurts her chest...
Claiming she's gave him her best...
Saying she fell in love and he played her... you should know the rest...

His story simply consist of her being a J.O...
Ready and willing of letting the whole team go...

Only consisting of one night...
And I'm stuck in the middle of two wrongs without a right...
Any where in sight...

Her story consisted of ONE WHOLE WEEK...
And to his game she fell weak...
In between playing in his sheets...

He threw the word "LOVE" in the mix and said it first...
And he said she begged him to allow her to quinch her thrist...

He's also saying he didn't RUN game as the rules were already layed down...
With her saying that's how it was before "LOVE" was added and now he's a clown...

And now she can't act civilized for my sake...
Without feeling as if she's fake...
Saying this is pain she can't take...
And I'm asking HOW MUCH MORE DRAMA CAN SHE CREATE...

Also asking why dwell on the past if you can't change it...
And this poem finalizes my thoughts as I'm using my last page and...
As I simply say no matter what the case may be...
At the end of the day I'm living for me...
And I REFUSE to let this love go with such as great start...
Cuz I have no other choice in life but to follow my heart...
4:34a 10/28/08

-my thoughts- 1 how can you really fall in love and be all this hurt if it only lasted a week (in her story)...2 she's known as a hoe around the way so he's story could be true....3 the shit has happened and it's over with...LET THE SHIT GO...DAMN!!!!!!