For Baby:

If I died tonight
If breathing became but a memory
On the back of my fingertips
Hands gripping dirt
having conversations with earth worms
Will you remember me?
I mean
The way I was
Before the news came to you
Before the open casket funeral
Before the burial
Will you remember the good times and smile
Or will you hold me to the times I didn't do enough to make us happy
Would u hold me to my debts
The 5 dollars I always borrowed and never paid back
Would u remind me of my shortcomings
The times I promised you the stars and moon
Knowing I was afraid of heights in the first place
Would you cry over my photos and call me beautiful over and over again until you are convinced my spirit would finally believe it
would you even bother to remember me
Because the memories that you force yourself to forget
are often the best memories you'll never have
And if u can't remember me
I never happened
And if I never happened
Its impossible to have loved me
And hearts can't be broken over something that never existed
But if I died tonight
If breathing became but a memory on the back of my fingertips
Would you become religious ?
And pray for ressurection
Or would u become a simple atheist waiting for science to prove you wrong and tell you that they have discovered a cure for aids,cancer
and the key to immortality lies locked away in a chamber
cupped underneath my crossed hands
6 feet beneath the ground
baby just tell me
If I died tonight
Would u believe
True love lives forever?