Forgive me Father…for they know not what I do

Brushing past, eyes wide shut
Lost on my own cue
Have to maintain
Stay focused
This grind is not undue
Seconds, minutes, hours gone unnoticed
Time’s residual residue.

Forgive me Father…for they comprehend not what I am

This blood pumping through my veins
Marks limits that must expand
Restrictions that must give way to
The WOe brought to MAN
See they fail to understand
That as WOMAN
I am creation’s infinitely dangerous plan.

Forgive me Father…for they see not what I see

Visions set dreams on fire
Eyes burn through horizon’s reality
Untouched sight of a missionary
Blazing through history
But I cannot expect them to see
A path that is only laid out for me.

Forgive me Father…for their way is not my own.

My soul lives in the heavens
Eternal source of light
Sweet, serene home
But my body has descended to pits
Where good has been dethroned
As salt of the earth
Where I step foot, epiphany is prone.

Forgive me Father…for the battle is not won.

I have fought long and hard
But each day brings new victories undone
Although I stand on your word
My faith seems to be stunned
Since it is your everlasting promises
Proudly they continuously shun
But for them to be lost, you did not come
So as more than a conqueror,
I refuse to succumb.

But I am compelled to ask for your forgiveness Father…
As I realize that the unsaved cannot be relieved.

How can I bare a burden
That cannot be perceived?
How is it possible that you expect me to retrieve
Souls lost to sin because of their own unbelief?
Or is it my heart that your word deceives?
Oh should my selfish thoughts be granted reprieve!
For you have positioned me to save a world that only conceives
The same forbidden fruits that consumed Adam and Eve.