I met Miles about ten years ago
Neither of us had any thoughts of settling down
I was just entering college and he was just starting his career
A true friendship developed over a few dates
We usually hang out together a couple times a month
Even double dating on occasion
We are always each others stand in date for business or social events
Last week he called me at the last minute to be his escort
He and his girl friend had recently broken up
The whole night he was sad and quiet
Not eating much just drinking from the open bar
I ended up having to drive him home
After getting him in the house
Making a pot of coffee
I realized that he wasn’t as drunk as I first suspect
Depression was his biggest problem
After two cups of coffee he was finally ready to talk
He admitted that he was hurt from the break up
Not so much her, but the dream of finally settling down
Having children and having the American dream
I was quite surprised because I didn’t think that most men wanted these things
When he broke down crying on me I was very shocked
I comforted him the best that I could
Although I could feel the sexual tension growing between us
This was something new
Holding him in my arms comforting him by rubbing his back
He begin kissing my neck and gently rubbing my breast
I have loved this man like a brother for so long, but those feelings were changing
The brotherly love was gone
Desire was on the rise
I was feeling quite moist between my thighs
I usually would have thrown caution in the wind
Saying fuck the friendship and went for the prize
But I saw something different in his eyes
There was passion of course, but he looked at me much deeper
As much as I wanted to test his waters
I need his friendship more
If we sleep together would we be able to continue what we had built over the years
Who would I bounce ideas off of
Who could I complain to about my men
Was I willing to risk all of this for a one night stand
My decision was made for me
I need this man more than I need his sex
So, I gave him one last hug
A kiss on the forhead and prepared to leave
Not trying to stop me or convincing me to stay
His eyes watched me as I walked out the door
Early that next morning my phone rung
It was Miles on the other line
I could hear the emotions in his voice
“Can we met and talk”

to be continued…..