In solitude I found fortitude
The ambiance set the scene for restoration of my mind, heart and soul
Like Janet I'm in control of my destiny

I no longer allow myself to be misused and abused
Generosity, kindness of heart
This natural ability to be nurturing, mothering baby boys up in the crib
Attentive, catering to their every whim
Long gone are the days of neglecting my state of mind

Enough is enough
Slaps in the face once left the taste of blood in my mouth
Slaps in the face once put a murmur in my chest
Enough is enough

How many times can someone step on your toes before it becomes difficult to walk?
Walking through life tippy toe-ing
Never knowing when that ill mannered lover is going to blow their top.
Never dancing
Never joyfull
Always cautious,
Nauseous towards myself.

Too many times have your malicious words injected venom into my brain.
It doesn't matter how you word it because it all sounds the same
It's like you’re a dirty needle corrupting my veins
Stealing my life away
Turning my blood black
I am weakened, beaten, battered, bruised and abused by you.
But I am not broken.

I've taken ya shit with a grain of salt.
No I don't blame you because it's my fault...
My fault for trying to turn a snake into a God…
My imperfections allowed me to worship you when you're
NOT even worthy of my piss to save you if you were on fire.
It's my fault for being ignorant towards ya game
I realize that now so I accept the blame.

HOWEVER, now the tables have turned
And that veil of ignorance has been lifted
I'm not dumb
I'm not a silly bitch or a hoe
I am an intelligent, caring, loving, honest, reliable, responsible, WOMAN
So wait a minute... whoa man... slow ya roll
Like I said in the beginning this is my story
And I’m in control

The few chapters where you made a brief appearance
Is not the grand finale
It may have raised a few eyebrows
But it certainly will not overshadow the star of the show.
You got yours and now I’m gonna get mines
The best is yet to come for me
Now it's time for me to shine.