i don't even know where to begin...
i swore i didnt need anybody or anything
figured as long as i tried to remain in God's good grace
i had everything i needed...

but the thing is...He wanted more for me
like...a love I never fully believed could ever exist
like...a man whose spirit is so pure and strong
he would be impossible for me to resist.

but i didn't want it...or so i thought
i tried to run and STILL got caught

swept up off my tired feet into the strong arms of love
cause only You knew, Lord...I was barely maintaining

and...just because i wasn't complaining
didn't mean i was happy...

keeping my head up like the soldier that i am...
but living to only exist...

i am so glad i trusted You Lord, to know what is best

after 4 celibate years...
of patience and gratitude...my relationship with God grew..

and it wasn't until then ...that He blessed me with You

He has been making me over...im still a work in progress

but yet somehow...the road doesn't seem so...endless anymore.
i can clearly see the horizon like i have never seen before
fog has been lifted from my singular vision

and today i shout with joy at all the love i'm being given

been a mother my entire adult life...but the word wife eluded me..
maybe i didnt think i was worthy...
or God didnt think i was ready..
either way, it has finally come to be...

and i never knew i could feel this ...
complete fullness inside of me.
people even stop me in the streets
they say i have a glow

i just tell them..."if you only knew what i know..."

God has been so good to me.