to a lover that never found the time to become the greatest thing this world could have ever seen. we shread much in the short time we did have together. its crazy its like with the change of the weather came a change in Gods plans for you and me. all i can say is goodbye. you were once my friend and lover and now your just that member of my past that helped shape me into the man that i am. i was hurt a time or two before i even meet you but i tried to stick threw and be the best man possible. but its like i could never find the right path to take because i was always in the wrong. its like i let you down ever time i tried i could see the end coming before i could find the happieness that we shared. its like the rain came in and wouldnt stop. you changed my life and almost broke me to the core. you shared you with me and i shared my life and my passion or life with you. at some point you decided to take more than i was willing to give; i dont know why you couldnt just let the dream live. and when you move on to the next man i hope you realize what you lost and let go. because only God and i know all the things i was willing to do for you. i would have traveled to the ends of the earth if it meant i could bring you back a piece of the dream a star that feel from the sky. i am that star that feel from the sky and came to show you a different side of life. i am a shell of a man that finds it hard to understand why im so hollow its a hard pill to swallow to know that you gave it your all and for the life of you it was not enough. i dont miss you but sometimes everynow and again i think to myself again what did i do that was so wrong? what did i do to push you away? why did life take this turn? i wonder at nights sometimes if this was the path meant for me. heartbroken am i always meant to be heartbroken? i wonder at night is heartbroken the way im supposed to be? you broke me to my core and now im unsure of anything that i mite try to do. dame im still a fool for love.. always have been and probably will be till the day that i leave this world. and the funny thing is i can always see the end before the beginging comes; but i go along with it knowing that the end result will be me alone in the dark. but if i find happiness for a short while its better than a life time of unhappiness. TO LOVE AND LOSE IS ALWAYS BETTER THAN TO BE A FOOL AND NEVER WANT TO KNOW WHAT LOVE FEELS LIKE.
i held your hand in mines i let you explore the depths of my mind i wrote you poem after poem for the way you made me feel. i gave my time my attention, my love, my everything i gave to you. and in the end i could see it was probably never meant to be. i could see that you were to be the tool of my reeducation to a lifestyle that i could no longer except. i let you into the depths of my heart i blinded myself to what could happen to me if i gave you the keys to who i am and my personality. my life is a mess so filled with stress but i know i am blessed. even tho you broke me to pieces i have picked up the shattered portions of my life and put them back together. threw my life i have loved more than my share. and if i never love again i thank GOD for the chance to have found love a few times in this short life time i have lived. i feel i have meet the one for me on several occassions but in the end it just couldnt work.
AS you move on and find someone new just remmber what me and you use to be; just remmber what we have been threw and the road we traveled to get to where we were going.

you were once my lover.

you were once my friend.

you were once my everything.

now im not sure what i should think about you.
for all my life their have been troubles that i had to face but im not sure what i should do anymore so i walk out the door and say goodbyw my lover. move on and dont worry for me. i have been hurt a time or two and broke a heart or two before and im sorry if i lashed out at you in anger for the pain that i feel. but i remain a man of my own will and am only willing to let life take me where it will and bring me a new love even if its only a short term thing.

(this write is of the few loves i have had not all of it is aimed at one person just a lifetime of relationships that all eneded for one reason or another. those that know they roll in my life already know its not out of spite that i write this its just ventalation of the pain i have been threw)


the one that broke my heart the worst