I said this line before, and I will use it again,
25 battling suicide, which was just a few weeks back,
My train fell off track, A few pills and a bottle,
The liquor is the easiest part, where do I start,
Man, my life has been fucked up from the start,
Years of living with pain in my heart,
Witness many lives get taken, gun wounds and stabbings,
I know I don’t have the biggest problems for me,
But, I my soul have grown weak, and it’s only so much I can take,
Dealing with friends, who turn out to be fake,
Pushed away the one woman who truly loved me,
But, I guess I did the right thing to save her,
Now I’m going through Physco therapy,
And I’m trying to release my demons,
Cuz I’ve come to realize, if I don’t save myself,
Then who is going to save me, being suicidal is serious,
Now my mom knows what I’m facing,
And it hurts when she blames herself, feeling like,
She didn’t do enough, but I assure her,
Mom don’t worry, this is something I have to face on my own,
It’s up to me now, but only if mom knew what I’m fighting,
Days I laid in my room crying; slowly inside I’m dying,
So I guess now I take my time, just put my energy into poetry,
And keep up with my therapy, suicide won’t be the death of me,
That’s why I go so hard with my poetry, this is my Life.