i should be happy
but i can't find it in me
mumbling to myself
what a birthday
this will be

another year
no longer do i feel the cheer
to celebrate ...what
memories
of when you was here

echoes of the past
never meant to last
traced as the ink fades
vanishing within my fate

i remember when your pen
made me wish i was your pad
feelings right now
that i wished i only had

as i fake a smile
to appease others for awhile
tears pour down inside
drowning me in my sorrow