BEFORE U READ THIS POEM TELL ME LET U KNOW ITS ABOUT MY MOTHER SOMEONE I NEVER SEEN AS A MOTHER !

YOU CAN YOUR SELF MY MOTHER BUT WE KNOW WE WAS NEVER THERE LIKE A MOTHER SUPPORT TO , WHERE WAS YOU WHEN I CRIED SO MANY NITES FOR U ?
WHERE THE HELL WAS YOU THE FIRST DAY OF SCHOOL? WHERE WAS U WHEN I HAD MY FIRST KISS OR EVEN START WOMAN HOOD ? FUCK YOU ! YOU WAS NEVER THERE FOR ME AND YOU WONT BE THERE FOR ME WHEN GOD'S CALLS ME HOME !
I STILL CRY AT NITE WANTING YOUR MOTHERLY LOVE ....

WHY DID U LEAVE ME AND THAT ROOM ? WHY DID U TAKE MY BROTHERS AWAY FROM ME ...THEY DID NOT ASK TO DIE !

DAMN I HATE THE FACT I LOOK LIKE YOU , I WISH I COULD TAKE UR SOUL AND LET U FEEL WHAT I FEEL ...

SOMETIMES I LOOK AT MY OWN KIDS AND HOPE AND PRAY AND WISH THAT I NEVER LEAVE MY BABIES THEY WAY U LEFT US !

I FEEL SO MUCH HATE INSIDE BUT GOD WONT LET ME FEEL THE HATE ... I GOT ON MY KNEES AND ASK GOD TO LET ME FORGIVE AND BRING U BACK IN MY LIFE ..

ITS WORKED FOR AWHILE BUT U WENT BACK TO THE STREETS ! ONCE AGAIN YOU USED MY HEART AND MY LOVE I GAVE YOU AND THROW IT AWAY FOR FUCKING DRUGS ...YOU FUCKING CRACK HEAD I HATE U ! I HATE U !

DO U REMEBER ON CHRISTMAS WHEN U COME TO VIST ME AND THE KIDS AND YOU WAS HIGH U STOLE MY MONEY JUST TO GET A FUCKING FIXED ...

DAMN YOU WHY CANT U SEE HOW MUCH YOU HAVE HURT ME SENT DAY ONE AND NOW I HAVE TO LOOK AT MY SELF EVERYDAY HOPING I DONT TURN OUT LIKE YOUR SORRY ASS DID ...

YOU COULD NEVER HAVE THAT TITLE " MOTHER " CAUSE U WAS NEVER A MOTHER TO ME JUST A WOMAN WHO HAD ME AT THE WRONG TIME IN HER LIFE ...

DAMN LOOK AT ME NOW GOT ME CRYING WRITING THIS SHIT ....SEE HOW YOU STILL FUCKING HURT ME ... DAMN YOU TO HELL

WHY YOU JUST DIDNT KILL ME THAT DAY? WHY IT HAD TO BE MY BROTHER?

DAMN ! I GUESS IM IN TO DEEP

WHEN YOU TOLD ME YOU LOVED ME AND NEVER LEAVE MY SIDE ..WELL NOW I KNOW U LIED RITE IN MY EYES ...

BUT U KNOW WHAT IN MY HEART I STILL LOVE YOU JUST BECAUSE YOU SHOW ME NOT HOW TO BE A MOTHER SO I THANK YOU FROM THE BOTTOM OF MY HEART ..

THANK YOU MOTHER AND ONE DAY I HOPE YOU FOUND THIS AND SEE HOW MUCH YOU HAVE TORN ME APART !!!!!!!!!!!!

OK THANKS GUYS I HAD TO GET THIS OUT SORRY IF U DONT UNDERSTAND OR GET MAD AT ME JUST SOMETHING I HAD TO VENT ABOUT !!!!!!