SlimCutta:

He Says..
I cant..
I wont..
I cant
I wont let you leave...
Not sure what you want from me..
But here i go..

I will be a father..
Even if i have to..ill be the starver..
Instead of you and my seed..
You know i stopped drinking...and never smoked weed..
So the communication is coming back.
But there are still interruptions that never lack..
Confidence in you and me..
Flows more so through....this "we"...
Harboring thoughts of a wedding day..
Even though the engagement is unofficial in a way..
A meeting of the minds this must be..
Because i feel like Yoda ..Speaking in terms of "We"..
But I cant and wont..Let you leave..

  itsnmysoul:

She.. Says..
Ive been a starver
a mother
a faithful concubine..
Ive been the rhythm and rhyme and behind another mans beat..
Ive been beat, bruised, and used over and over again.. but
here i am at a vulnerable place .. broken.. and mending all at the same time
I'm finding out you.. and this "we" thing. when i haven't even downloaded this "me" thing..
I'm slowly making room for you in my heart filling you out and over thinking
my part
our communication gets interrupted my autopilot plans
airports and different things
we use as mnemonic devices
to hide
and pen point each others vices
this part is
dicey and choppy
hurt and loving
irritating and hopeful
an oxymoron
love.
but i know one thing..
I wont..
You cant
leave..
what i want from you is you.. on a platter of truth. ready to be devoured and used
because the knowledge you have i can use too.
before i met you... i detested wedding and matrimony of any kind
being in a permanent thing was like poison in my eyes
times have changed
and thought of wedding days rain heavily down my mind
like engagement rings and baby baskets
my mind is open in ready..
i wont leave..
i cant leave..

  SlimCutta:

He Says..
Its been a while..
Since i could open up like a cabinet file.
Spending my days and nites..in a the middle of a bottle...
Now i look forward..to baby bottles..
I just hope it flows like the Nile..
And we grow like the Egyptian Kings and Queens of old ..while..
You become my Queen..
And i..your Bahamian King...its been seen..
Through the eyes of prophets..
And preachers who become open like pamphlets ..
But i am ready to devour this food..
I am open wide...this is for the good..
Not for the bad..

I cant and wont let you leave..
Because i believe in the words I love you....
It isnt fake like that yak weave..
But it breaks my heart when i cant give you more....more than the words boo..
Something like a ring..a necklace..
Or even a hug that leaves you...tear-less..
I cant and wont leave..
Its inevitable this is gonna be..
Since it isnt based on that lil she..
Its just about us..
Taking it slow..like we riding the short bus..
So what more do you want from me..
Im ready and open to be..
More than
I cant and wont let you leave ..

  itsnmysoul:

She Says..
baby bottles and diaper changes.. late night errands
Ive thought about it all..
the bottle is behind us.. the Caribbean is in front.. glowing with the radiant skin for ancestry and rich salts of history.. embedded in us..
i trust you as a man.. respect the love you give..
i take it as it is.
its been foreseen the union.. of us..
you complete my "me" thing..
the healing process has begun..
your lost love looks down and she beams like the sun.. happy for you
and as for the Lil one..
she is intended where her life was begun..
i cling to you..
i blend into you ...
like..
creamer in my coffee
except you make me a richer black..
a deeper Soul than i was before..
i know you would give me the moon and the suns. worlds if possible
i want love and sons..
if possible
my very own yous
compact and anew
new future..
numb past...

I'm building immunity to the hurt and the lies
your love breaks through the bitterness and strife
your words are enough just like your hugs
just like your mind

my tears reflect us...
loving you makes me and better me ...
loving you makes my world much brighter..
loving you envelopes my
one of a kind..
mind..

we will walk through the sands of time one day holding hands and laugh
because
the future turned out much more rich than the right now..
i sun bath under your eyes
soaking in your radiance
consuming your
you
I wont..
I cant leave..

because you are all i have..