maybe in the next life..
the next trip..
the next journey
things will start to make sense.
how can we manage to live this life of rollercoasters??
of constant HIGHS and lows...

its hard to maintain a balance of sanity.
Shyt you ask of me too much.
You want for too much.
And I'm out of answers to give.
I'm out of emotions to share.
Don't you realize I'm already struggling
to answer my own questions..
yet you continue to pile your lost paths
on my straight exhausted mind waves.

you see whats going on
is I tried to give to you those things in my way..
in my time..
in my direction.
but I guess once again MINE
wasn't good enough for you.
All you were focused on was
how this would work out for you.
How things should play out in your world...

you failed miserably in my eyes.
See I started to step out from behind my fear
and brick walls covered with spray paint
of my lives pain and hardships.
Started to believe in "it" again...
but as always...

life throws in those fucked up events...

its to late to care now because I'm already back..

and once again...
I turn my back and run back to solitude..
its the only place I can really be me
and not worry about the pain
you will most Definitely inflict
on my all tooooooo sensitive heart..