while ur reading this keep in mind that he & him are 2 DIFF people...lol....


i love twice
i hurt him once
i told him never
that he loves me better.
although i love them both
i love him more than he
and would never place him
second to anyone.
it would crush him
to kno that he
has had a piece of me.
it would kill him to kno that he
was always keepin me happy.
he's been doin a job
that belongs to him.
he always came through to
make up for areas that him
always seemed to neglect.
i want them both because
being with he & him
fulfills every aspect of me.
but, im scared after a while
he'll get tired of sharing with him
and he already starts to wonder
wat he's doin wrong
because he cant get 100% of me.
but he dosnt kno
its all because of him.
& it tears me apart inside
beacause i've already disappointed him
and he dosn't deserve this.
& i hate that it came down to
me hurting him
& i dont like that ive' kept
he in secrecy
& i regret falling in love
twice at once.