exactly
how long

is forever

cuz each moment without you is like
counting grains of sand
and
every minute line of my hand
losing count halfway through and having to begin again

and
more specifically

when will eternity take over

cuz i mean
i’ve been roving aimlessly seemingly lost
tossed aside by those unable to pay the cost for my divinity
and every amenity allotted
in my besotted state was greedily accepted and reimbursed with hate
and my innate sense of being sent me fleeing onto the edge of an unknown where i realized that i was better off alone

yet

i anticipate
my infinite fate
and the waiting becomes so excruciating at times and my mind begins that old habit of
debating my worth
contemplating the design laid out for me at birth
and for all of life’s challenges set forth upon my path i stand tall realizing there’s nothing i cant get past

exactly
how long

is forever

does it's dimensions equate with those of never
constantly evolving into nothingness
revolving like galactic orbs whose paths maintain a parallel course with a source of creation adamantly debated by those who claim to know eternal bliss

or does it live in a kiss

where promises abound and resound throughout ones spirit
for that is where its said that one can hear it
and
the further i get away i’m simultaneously drawn near it
and the ultimate goal is to experience what the ancients extolled of that kiss being the irrevocable transference of two souls

so i ask you
when does eternity begin?

for there is where supposedly new joys will transpire as we alight upon the higher planes of enlightenment
and as we walk in concordance with the ordinance set forth
releasing ourselves to be increasingly more
we'll discover in each other kindred beings of one mother
reveling in rebirth with an infinite lover
casting away all doubts and dismay as we ride the tide of eternal elation
side by side witnessing infinite revelations
and the duration of forever will no longer seem so intangible

because

each moment with you will seem like
counting grains of sand
and
every minute line in my hand
and
losing count halfway through
then having to begin again