Outside
Standing outside weirdo's shadowy elusive stature
Staring at night time skies
Seeking divine interest in my insalubrious misunderstood demeanor
As I'm battling the many ill-willed misconstrued misconceptions
Ingeniously spread within my abnormal formality
Causing severe chemical imbalances
To stagnate capabilities natural co-existing mechanisms
Which underlies contrasting encompassing contradicting chaotic compulsions
Making me seem rather primordially immorally odd
For my strangeness functions solely off territorial predatory confined instincts
Compromising internal self-preservation sensitivity
That flows fluently from influential irrational propensity
Taking residence in a insomniac insidious unstable unwitting soul
Deeming me curiosity's greatest threat

Being targeted and captured
Roughed-up and eventually taken in
Strapped in mistreatment's destabilizing chair
Given unknown psycho-agonic unapproved prescriptions
Getting inexplicably electrocuted
Subjected to malpractice's miscreant madness
Poked punctured and probed
Secretively medically examined
Interrogated
Asked repeatedly
Hearing the same rehearsed inquisitions uttered over and over

Like why?
Why?

I tell them it's just the loneliness maniacally rising

Why?
Why?

I keep declaring it's just human nature

Why?
Why?

Cause I enjoy suffering this way
I relish acting this way
I like living this way

So sad to say
But the sick thing is
I truly love it...............