How can I feel beautiful when I
know I am not what you prefer,
How can you be with me
If you're not accepting of all of me?
How can you refer
to other women as "fine"
while right in front of me
should I feel threatened,
When I know I'm already a dime?
That doesn't lesson the feeling
of being invisible, in your eyes,
unappreciated, I'm sensitive
not to mention a tad bit possessive,
question, what does this mean,
I'm not trying to change you or demean
anything you previously stood for, before me,
So, do I chalk this up as a learning experience?
Do I stay with my heart, that really loves you
despite the risk of it being broken...hurt
Do I stay for the long run, make this work?
Do I continue to allow you to chip away,
at the fragmented pieces of a tormented ego?
At times your so nonchalant, ignoring what I say.
second guessing, second thoughts on letting you go.
Why does this love thing have to hurt so bad,
does love always have to be this complicated
Why do I allow you to make me so mad?
Is it me playing off of my own insecurities?
Am I allowing your actions and cues
to play tricks, and spread innuendos?
Well fuck what they say, I'm beautiful,
I worked to hard to allow you to destroy me
built myself up, brick by brick and if
I don't meet your requirements
step the fuck out the way......