So this is what its come to......I don't need your sympathy
Who are you?....just another person "looking out" for me
I don't fit your standards....stop telling me what I should and shouldn't do
I'll stay in this relationship.....I don't need any approval from you
So what if he's cheating?......and he doesn't call me for several days
When you love someone........you never wanna push them away
Love.......its a strong word do you believe it?
I try to grasp at what I want....and I see it
"The perfect guy".....He deserves someone better than me
I know its not my fault.....I'm just facing reality
Now I'm with a different man....so what if he doesn't treat me fairly?
Would you let go the ONE thing that makes you smile?..or hold it dearly?
Maybe the drama excites me....or is the lust and passion that flows?
Maybe its the lies he keeps reciting.....without any remorse shown...
Maybe its the ordeals......in which he defends
Who cares?.......I'm accustomed to this trend.....
That rips me apart..../ and then I'm left in the dark
A voice left unspoken.....like a destroyed work of art...
You think I like being in this situation?
I look down on myself....absolutely no admiration
But I've come to the realization
That this is my destination
Can't you see?
This is where I'm meant to be
SO JUST LET ME BE
Fuck the empathy....
Love is that tug of war you never wanna play...but your happiest when you do
You feel some sort of gratification when someone cares for you
And in the process you fall in the mud....that one stain will remain
With continued play.....the tug becomes more of a serious game.....
Of course a good person always comes along....but I have to let them go
Cuz they're above me....unfortunately....I'm stuck below......
What if I "get aroused when my feelings are dragged through the dirt"?
(Love is the wrong key to my heart.....pain is the only thing that'd fit it)
I love getting hurt
Are you satisfied?.....I admit it.....
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Okay....This has nothing to do with me...I just wrote it based on what other females in this situation might be feeling.....In the end..I admitted it....because no matter what's blinding you...deep down....It comes down to the point that you love being hurt.....Like RTJ said..."unless you have a gun to your head ...there is no where that states you have to stay and put up with that"....So if you REALLY wanted to be out of that specific relationship...you would of left already....Ummm in case you didn't notice I kinda said what love meant to a certain extent in this poem....."Maybe the drama excites me....or is the L-UST and passion that flows?.../Maybe its the L-IES he keeps reciting.....without any remorse shown..."
"Maybe its the O-RDEALS......in which he defends"...."A V-OICE left unspoken.....like a destroyed work of art..." "Fuck the E-MPATHY...." ((L.O.V.E)).....There you have it....there it is.....