i still remember...
the screams and the yelling for you to stop
the crying and wailing...
as i begged you not to undress me...
i pleaded with you..i rember it well
"if you promise not to touch me there...i promise not to tell"
that evil grin on your face..said what you could not
you were taking what u wanted from me..and u werent going to stop
i bit..and scratched..and god dammit i kicked..
you kicked harder..you slapped..you destroyed...u spit
you ripped my tiny body apart..with your grown up fingers
the stench of stale liqour from your breathe...stuck to my flesh
and there it lingered
"please...please stop it. i want my mommy..please mr. stop!!"
the more pain i felt...the more you enjoyed yourself...
and when i realized it...my fighting spirit dropped...
you caused me a pain so unbearable...incurable by any pill
it was then that i had realized..this madman needs to be killed...
the affection i had felt for you..died that very day
and i swore before you hurt me even worse..you would die the very same way
as u pulled out your grown up fingers...i saw the chance to run..
i ran around in search...but all i found was an unloaded gun
i turned to my next alternative...i found a butchers knife
im soo sorry...i had to kill you..so that i could save a life
a life that had a meaning..a light that had to shine...
i had to save a life by killing you...
and by god...that life was mine

i asked you not to hurt me..
i begged you just to stop...
but this time..it wasnt me who fell....it was you that had to drop
so you see i never wanted this..but i couldnt let you hurt me anymore
nevermind that my parents had hated me..and my family called me a whore
i rid the world of a monster...and you will never hurt again..
i saved many little girlsz...by causing your lethal end
as sorry as i am...i had to kill you with that knife..
i had to take yours..so that I could save a life
my life..
thier lives...
and ironically...your life