i cant begin to write for u...
cuss when my tip touches the sheet
my back arches outward like im hunching
struggling to breathe while my heart sinks

i cant begin to write for u..
the tears in my eyes..
congregation-alize and blur my vision
temporary disabling my sight

i cant begin to write for u..
my fingers quickly start to shake
and all pain travels from my heart into my fingers and cripple with
the loss of u and dying of suffocation in my fingertips of life's ache

i cant...
i cant begin to write for u..
i cant..
I CANT BEGIN TO WRITE FOR U...

my mouth stays deadlock shut
as im speechless and unable to speak
of how much you've always meant to me

A.J. I CANT
i cant stop thinking of you because ya beautiful smile pops up
and surrounds my every thought
i keep staring out the window hoping to see you walk up the street
instead a glowing light floats above my fence
and call me crazy but at times it seems like your eyes are embedded in the trees

i swear im constantly delusional now
my mind is playing so many tricks on me but i cant figure out how

i want the truth to be a lie
i rather have you breathing
NOT DEAD WE ALL NEED YOU TO BE ALIVE

i cant being to write for u..
i start guilt trip after guilt trip
hating myself for all the lost unforeseen time
how all there is are memories
and if i tried to print them all out at kinkos the world would run outta dimes!!!

the lines of my paper move i swear
they're spelling out no my tears
ill forever be...here

but i cant move on i cant think forward
my present thoughts scream insanity
well my heart keeps rupturing with blasts of plagued misery

i cant begin to write

i cant for u

maybe later or a few more days or just two!

I JUST CANT WRITE FOR YOU!



REST IN THE HEAVENS A.J.!!!! GIVE GOD A RUN FOR HIS CLOUD DOLLARS AND FIND TUPAC AND HIT HIM UP ON THE DICE... OAK PARK STYLE BABY!!!!!