Reflection....
The last time i recalled seeing me
I was 5'7 160 lbs measurements 36 29 43
That was the last time i seen me
Now 3 months later i'm double the size of the old me
Hating the thing growing on the inside of me
The thing that kicks me every night in my side
Preventing me from getting any decent sleep...
I'm constantly running to pee
I'm always hungry needing to eat
And now i'm just a big pregro with this life bearing thing growing on the inside of me
I lookin the mirror and just watch the tearz stream down my cheeks
Staining the skin as the dripped from my face and trickled down the distinct line on my belly
Looking at this fat girl wondering where along the line did i lose me....
Then i just fall to my kneez crying hysterically
I have no one to blame but me.... silly me laying there while he just let his little kidz flow into me
I just wish they could leave like he did....
Just abandon my body like he did....
But all they do is stick with me like a bad memory....
But i refuse to let this be the last of me so i make the appointment
go the next day as they chopp and suck the thing out of me...
Leave bleeding
Feeling as though something is missing.....
I was growing to love that thing that kept me from sleeping
I was learning to deal with the constant peeing
and having a big appetite wasn't bad i actually enjoyed the eating
Now when i tap my stomach i don't get a thump back
Where is the thingy
Oh my God i'm a MURDERER......
How could i kill my biggest blessing
All you wanted was to love me.....