i sometimes

i sometimes speak softly
drawing you closer to me
as i dream of the possibilities
i am a few seconds away from
telling you that...

i sometimes hear your name
whispered in the wind
it's like the universe is
putting me on notice
because you're heaven sent.

i sometimes see you
but can't speak because
you being in the vicinity
has got my palms sweaty
&& my knees are getting weak.

i sometimes close my eyes
in an attempt to memorize
the little things about you like
every hair on your head &&
fleck of gold in your eyes.

i sometimes think about
getting bold && reaching out for you
but then common sense kicks in
&& i remember that we barely know each other
so i must be trippin, once again.

i sometimes feel you near
so i search for you && as our eyes meet
you routinely throw up the deuces
or give me a nod which i acknowledge but
it'll never replace your hand in mine.

i sometimes crave you
see, instead of food
it's you that i need
&& although many can't see it
i walk aimlessly [with hungar in my eyes].

i sometimes wonder
when i'll be fed
since you are my food
i can only eat
in the company of you.

i sometimes consider cooking
&& this is something i'd only do for you
because i don't even cook for myself
&& yet, thoughts of you
have got me wanting to be domestic.

i sometimes taste brown sugar
as your name slips from my lips
&& even though you're not around
i feel your eyes on me
as i overdose on your sweetness.

&& i'd like to tell you
how much i think of you.

but remember...
i [only] sometimes.

nicole alexandria
a.k.a lexie
7.11.08