I want to be original
and as im originally thinking of logical ways in which i can become a better person, I dont want to become a victim of the worldy pleasures.
for romans 12:2 says
"And do not be conformed to this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind so that you may prove what the will of God is, That which is good, acceptable and perfect."
And as im thinking, this come to mind
For with conformity no originality can ever be shown
as the acceptability wanted from others always go wrong
as people place faith in man leaving them all alone
and im thinking this is not how i want my life to go on.

I want to be fearless of what the future holds, being bold and not easily sold on the many wrong things in life that I am told and Iwant the Lord to mold me into something beautiful, something purposeful
Sculpting me so that I may have meaning
so that i may know that my existence on this earth is not in vain
and even though the Lords does sometimes allow me to have pain, causing my mind to go insane, on others I dont want to blame, how i've become emotionally drained.

I want to be able to have faith
I want to have faith that everything will be alright even when i feel that it isn't
Faith that I can still go on even if the past I have to relive it
Faith so strong that no one will be able to miss it
and i want it to be so mighty that everyine knows this faith exists
Faith so powerful that even the deaf can hear it
and so bright that even the blind cant bear it
See i just want to have that inevitable faith.

I want to be able to patiently wait for the man that God has designed for me
We are told that men are made in his image so a breathtaking one I want him to be
But you see there are still unresolved issues that rely within me
which is the reason as to why I am single and this I do agree.

And you see ive heard time and time again that a womans heart should be so hidden in Christ that men have to seek him first in order to find her
and, I want to be that Woman
and i want him to be that man to with i can have intellectual conversations
and to the Lord he shows dedication
with a combination of admiration
because Christianity is his foundation
as we cast out our expectations
leaving one another with inspiration
to just go on.

I want to be able to save the world
I want it to be like in the movies where theres always that fairy tale ending
and depending on what movie, everyone gets some type of defending
but then i snap back into reality as i realize its all just pretending
as my thoughts can come off a little offending
but in this rending nation theres so many problems that need mending
and there just no way they can all be fixed...

but in the midst of my mixed emotions
i know these problems still exist
and as perplexed as they may be
for them i'll still persist
cause after all, I do want to be able to save the world.

So now as i'm reflecting back on my want to be's
im sick and tired of wanting to be a wanna be
and as im thinking on the things i wanted to do
im realizing that all i had to do was make that move
So i've decided now that im going to devise a plan
and in this plan im going to take a stand

But then slowly something clicks within
as i start to examine and reexamine my thoughts again
and now my thoughts are begining to wear thin
cause ive just realized that every thing ive menitoned,
I already am.