I'd Send Myself to Hell for Your Love
By Christyl

See my tears falling down like rain drops
They cover your entire body as you venture to seek out
better love
Stinging your eyes as your burning my heart and then it stops
Killing a desperate soul while your being so low I float above...

I watch you grab her like you did me when we first met
kiss her softly as you whisper guilty pleasures into her heart
begging her to tell you thatshe'll do anything for you and her to wed
meanwhile your ripping out my emotions and twisting them around your finger...I ask God, WHY DID I FALL SO HARD?

As I watch from a distant heaven that I was supposed to share with you...
Hell's fire in my eyes as I scream the thunder that claps along with your violent thrusts
God's angels surround me...I'm clawing at my wrists and screaming WHAT AM I GONNA DO?
Lightning strikes as the sky rapidly changes from dawn to dusk...

"Clear!" I hear the ambulance siren...my eyes are as heavy as dumbells
you crying over me listening to the doctors say she may not make it...
and its funny how you can hold your composure so well
because i know deep in my mind...there is another you wish to be with!

Only God mustered the strength in me to fight one last fight
to talk one last talk and tell my last truth
see men like you always bring down my natural high
to a depression so low that I can't think...and don't know what to do

He cries out, "Baby i love your heart...your spirit will rise..."
I argued, "You got your nerve nigga...So full of bull!
Got the audacity to stand here and fcckin lie!
My loyalty and heart's contract to you is now void and null!"

"I put you before my life....gave you all you got!
Pain was over for you baby and even though you cheated again and again...
I still gave yo SORRY ass a shot!"

"I watched you as you gave two damns about whether I'd live or die for you...
You grabbed her and wished for you two to be one...
Angels couldn't hold me and God couldn't smite me hard enough as I cursed thunder and lightening
too!

"Answer me this question love...would she die and tell
God to send her to hell for you to be watched over?
Beg God to forgive you for you have sinned
or actually lied to her Father saying, "Lord, he wasn't sober!"

Would she meet the Devil personally??
Asking instead of plaguing you with HIV or As I Die Slowly...
Just in your place take me?? No! For you ILL burn for eternity...
Whether or not you were still only in love with me...

And with that....

I was sent to burn in hell...and in spirit for all the SHIT I put up with....
I took you with me!