If I didn’t want you, you would kno
If I didn’t want you my feelings would show
If didn’t want you I wouldn’t get
Mad when you didn’t return a call
Or stood me up at the mall
No
I would just let it go
But since I do
You catch hell, don’t you?
I scream, I yell I fuss I fight
I call you all kinds of names
But later on that night
You find out how much I really want you
If I didn’t like you, you would kno
If I didn’t like you my feelings would show
If I didn’t like you I wouldn’t drown in your kisses
And count your freckles
I wouldn’t get lost in your words
Or become the one who heckles
The guy on the other team that you just beat
I wouldn’t applaud you in your triumph
And comfort you in your defeat
But I do, so I’m that one who
Goes to the front of the stands
And roots for her man
Even when you lose you’re a winner in my eyes
But to my surprise
You still believe that I don’t like you
If I didn’t love you , you would kno
If I didn’t love you my feelings would show
If I didn’t love you I wouldn’t get nervous when you’re out so late
Or tense when u travel from state to state
I wouldn’t cry when I upset you
Or wallow in my tears
I’d suck it up take
it like a man
and tuck away my fears
But there is this shame I feel inside
When I can’t be by your side
My heart aches at the thought of another
So I cover
My pain with a sea of “Whatever’s”
Flooding your inbox
If I didn’t need you, you would kno
If I didn’t need you my feelings would show
If I didn’t need you my stomach wouldn’t cramp when I have a withdrawal of you
I would be able to sleep with out the thought of you
My nightmares would consist of goblins and ghouls
Instead of images of you holding another
Instead of the thoughts that make me wonder
Why
Why do I bother?
But then I remember why I do,
So I don’t sleep
Who needs it when I’ve go you
Those thoughts?
Please I just attach myself to you
So everywhere you are I follow behind
While my nightmares that haunt me eat away at my mind
And I find
That I’m too blind
To see
That you are nowhere to be found
If I wasn’t so stupid I wouldn’t have wanted you
If I wasn’t so stupid I wouldn’t have liked you
If I wasn’t so stupid I wouldn’t have loved you
If I wasn’t so stupid I wouldn’t have needed you
Only if…