Im a mess right now..
Living in this perishible world of uncertainty
self judgemental thoughts are plagueing me
suffocating me
Im drowning in self misery
And im not strapped with a life preserver
These thoughts are lazy
I have a good idea of what needs to be done
Im just trying to reason with self
before she or I have nothing left
I need to get over myself
I ask myself at times arn't I good to you
Hav'nt I been good to you
And she answers
Is that the only question you have for me you selfish silly girl
SELFISH...
I thought to self....In what ways have I neglected you
You see life is not plausible
and not always reasonable
And I thought to self again, you are so superficail and I think thats whats killing you
I have genuine doubt in things you see as mistrust
And again, I ask hav'nt I been good to you
And she then responded I am uncomfortable with your lack of air
I am under develop,uncultured
I acquire enlightment and excellence
But all you do is sit
And all my inteligence goes unnoticed
And I ask self again...Hav'nt I done whats needed to be done
With the cards I was dealt
And how can I get ahead of self
You once serge toward a more advantageous position
It was to much to feed self
And i was the one who kept you safe from injury,harm and self destruction
Your lack of concentration and hopelessness is killing me
which is now lowering my vitality
And all i ask is for your assistance
Put away your pass
bottled your heavy depressing thoughts
because of you im a mess right now....