MOOD IS TENSE,
TOO SILENT,
NO ONE MOVING,
USUALLY A CIRCUS,
I WALK IN,
UNFAMILIAR FACES MAKING ME NERVOUS,
SOMEONE SAYS "PLEASE SIT DOWN"
I DESPISE THOSE WORDS COMBINED WITH " I HAVE SOME BAD NEWS"
THEY TELL ME YOU'RE GONE,
UNAWARE,
OR MAYBE IN DENIAL I ASK "WHERE?"
THEY SAY TO A BETTER PLACE
I KNOW WHAT THAT MEANS BUT THERE IS NO BETTER PLACE
FOR ME AT LEAST OTHER THEN IN YOUR ARMS WHEN I COME HOME,
TO BE IN THE PRESENCE OF YOUR GLOWING FACE,
PEARLY WHITE TEETH APPEARING BEFORE ME AS YOU SAY
"THERE'S MY FAVORITE NIECE"
SOMEBODY HELP ME I CANT BREATH,
STOP TALKING I CANT FUCKIN BREATHE!!!
CALMING MYSELF DOWN....
ITS NOT WORKING...
TRYING AGAIN...
STILL NOT WORKING.
I GRAB MY KEYS,
RUNNING TO THE DOOR,
FEEL A FORCE AMONG MY ARM,
I YELL FOR THEM TO LET ME GO,
I CANT BE HERE, I NEED TO LEAVE
I NEED TO BE ABLE TO THINK,
RACING DOWN I-45 AT FRIGHTENING SPEED
I CAN HEAR SIRENS BEHIND ME,
I PULL OVER SLOWLY AND PUT MY TEAR INFESTED FACE IN MY HANDS,
PEERING THROUGH THEM, TO MY LEFT I SEE THIS MAN,
HE LOOKS AT ME AND SAYS THERE MUST BE A PROBLEM, OR AT LEAST IT SEEMS TO BE,
I REPLIED SOBBING,
NO OFFICER, IM OKAY
JUST..
PLEASE TELL ME THIS IS A DREAM..