Lately things was not going so right
I'll sit on my bed and jus cry all night
Nobody understood
I just wanted to die
I kept my head up
god was on my side
I had to stay strong
Cause faith was still alive
And I started to pray
On my knees at my bedside
I said....

Dear God,
I am tired of going
through the things
that i'm going thru
some days I just want to give up
I know you love me that's all so tru
you died on the cross and all and now
I shall follow you
I dont know why I deserve this
maybe It's a test
and I will pass
you never gave me anything I couldnt handle
but this seems harder than the last
I'm giving you my heart
I can't hold this on my shoulders no longer
I'll give it to you
cause I know it all you can handle and I'll
always love you AMEN...

I stood up and wiped away my tears
sat on my bed
and ask GOD to just always be there
I can't put faith in MAN
they will never compare

And now things are finally looking up
everything is coming together
seems like this past week never happend
but i wont forget
cause I dont want an reenactment
I got through it with GODS help
and now I can write about it
with this pen on this paper i shout
I cry through my pen and with
every letter I stroke it bleeds
everyline I write
I come alive
and the pain slowly sheeds