Painful tears exit my eyelids..
Shredding my cheeks open...
As blood slowly pours...
My heart...Once again tore...
Thinking this time would be any different..
Was foolish of me..Childish of my heart...
To once again wanna love...Once again want to strive...
To long for your heart's desire...
And to be the ignition to your fire..
I understand that i am not an easy person to understand...
Because My brick wall never comes down..
Unless your willing to kick it down..
You have to work to understand.. Dig deep to relate...
I'm not the best person in the world...that i do know...
I argue...I fight...I curse...I don't trust...Jealously...
Things i Never said i don't do...I will always be me...
But the only way to get into the deeper layers of me emotionally...
Is actually...Beginning to vibe...and Connect with me..
So i let these tears fall.Because of you another fallen solider...
In my army of broken promises....Broken dreams..
Maybe i expect to much...Or maybe not enough...
As i stare at these four walls...They begin closing in...
As my body is suddenly Cold...Heart beat close to none..Pulse...
Completely at a halt...I'm completely dead...
In the eyes of the beholder...You bestowed..this pain...
You transferred your hurt..Your pain...Into My pain..My agony...
And i dont think thats fair...
Life is not the same...There is no one else to blame...
Other than Love...Love is the reason...I let you in so deep...
The reason I trusted you so much...
The reason my heart was in your hands...
So Love...Is the reason...why I am here...
In between these four walls...Eyes open...Mouth closed..
Heart without a beat...Pulse...stopped....
Love...You did this to me...
How do you feel now...
Is this what you wanted...
All these years I thought Love was my friend...
Only to realize love is my enemy...
Keep your enemies closer...right...
Love won another battle...
But I will win this war...
I am determined....
To no Longer fall for Love's game...
Cause I'm so tired of Love's shit...
Love is a trick...while Life's a bitch...
And Death is their Pimp...They all run hand in hand...
And I'm no longer running down the road...Not with that shit...


**Last Night was another one of them nights...Where...I just dont know why I even Fucking try anymore...This was a lil quick write...***