~Unpredictable Nature~:

sweet reality
she promises me
that life will always be
invaded by those who oppose
known to stick there nose
in other's bizness witness the crime
but can't pay attention to save a life
triflin mistake at birth by a mother who slept with sperm donor who had a wife
lawd knows it's not right
but in reality I will always have to fight
whether it's with my hands, my pen, a gun, or a knife
worse than Santa Clause cuz I'll check my list 3 X's twice
and how much does that add up to be
in reality I am equivalent to the queen in a hive of bumblebee's
thinking too much of myself??
why shouldn't I be
in reality the only one who can save me is me....

  RUBY RED DBL R:

there's a lot in my life that i have yet to tell
because if i reflect on the past, i'll cry and yell

i have had times of pen in one hand needle in another
asking god to take me as i wrote mad letters saying goodbye to my mother

this was me shooting drugs
it wasnt like as a child i never got hugs

i spent 6 years shooting and scoring
getting money for drugs by boosting and whoring

i needed to escape the pain
my life had me in an emotional drain

through that mistake
i contracted a disease that will take

my life, my future and my kids
bad enough alot of my time was spent doing bids

after 2 1/2 years of not shooting up the scars have went away
dont read this write and cry for me, just pray

  ~Unpredictable Nature~:

but in reality askng people to pray for me is a question I ask very cautiously
I mean let's be real
not many can stand in your shoes a day and go back and feel
those nights when you wanted to just die
and what about those days when you just wanted to cry
but the tears never seemed to fall
stalled emotions centered your aura causing peoples first impression of you to fall
and in the midst of it all you found a sliver lining
released the devil that had you in his grips and your life you started defining
hit me with reality when I took a look above to see
that the woman I'm collabing with at this very moment is NOT what she use to be
I love you Ruby.......

  RUBY RED DBL R:

you already know i love you too big UN
because of, my new friends i feel love, and know my life is not yet done

every time i see an old dope friend of mine they want me to fall
because when they were sick i was the one they would call

so i know they too busy getting high and wont pray
they were the first ones to show me how people you feed betray

living my live in and out of an abandoned truck
abandoned the beauty of my exterior because i didn't give a fuck

so i don't understand why people complain about what others do
do what you gotta do, remember no one cares as much as you

people wonder why i take a lot of pics
in reality, my beauty is what it depicts

sorry i freeze your pc
but picture therapy shows the growth in me

when you hear star cry know thats my anthem
in reality what i have been through is beyond them